There are so many reasons that I should be feeling happy right now, but instead I just feel significantly and incessantly anxious. I feel as though I am aware of every thought and feeling that I have and I’ve felt like this for months now. The only respite I have is when I’m distracted or asleep. When I’m by myself it is so much worse. I think that’s the main reason that I’m anxious about being by myself. Have I overdone the CBT and mindfulness?
I am still rehearsing in my head every single thing I do. It is exhausting.
I still have constant physical symptoms of anxiety – it alternates between a gnawing ache in my chest and a butterflies feeling in my lower abdomen.
I know the reason for it. It’s the ongoing stress from the divorce and the feeling that I am stuck and I just can’t move on.
The next milestone is family court on 14th January. In the meantime I have all the stress of Christmas.
this is me again 