I haven’t written in a while. My mood has been so low that I haven’t had the energy to write anything. And I’m so mixed up about the divorce, work, everything.
I was admitted for respite for 2 days to give my family a break the week before last. It didn’t really help me in any way.
I’m now back at home by myself. I don’t feel like a danger to myself anymore, so I’m allowed to be on my own.
I feel so lonely and isolated though. My youngest two daughters have gone on the Italy trip with their father – that’s why I’m feeling so bad. I feel so confused about my ex now. I know that he was a complete bastard to me, but in my current depressed state I want him to help me get better. How messed up is that?