Scared

I’m hoping I haven’t jumped from the frying pan straight into the fire.

I’ve been with my current partner for 4 years now and so far we’ve got on really well and never argued.

Bit we’ve come away on holiday for 2 weeks and the stress of organising the holiday has brought out a side of him that I’ve only had glimpses of before.

He’s been offhand and patronising a couple of times this week and I’ve got upset. We were both hot, tired and probably dehydrated, so I excused his behaviour towards me.

We had a car booked today and when we got to the car hire place we were told we were late to collect it so it had been hired out to someone else. My partner completely lost it. He was shouting at the woman in the car hire place. I was so embarrassed I went outside because I didn’t want to be associated with his behaviour.

The whole thing massively ‘triggered’ me to the point that I was shaking and tearful. I suddenly felt that I’d landed myself with another angry man.

He’s never raised his voice at me but I felt like it’s just a matter of time before he loses it with me. He was gaslighting me when we talked about it later. He gave a completely different version of events.

#love #stress #gaslighting #relationships