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Covid monotony

Day 3 in the Covid house

Woke up full of the joys of spring. It lasted about 10 minutes. Had breakfast with my man. He’s living with me at the moment working from home recovering from an injury.

He’s working downstairs. I’m back in bed with the dog. Government guidance says I shouldn’t cuddle my dog. I don’t think I’ve given him Covid though and I’m going to keep cuddling my dog.

Brain fog is my main thing this morning. I keep finding myself just staring into space. Also I have an intermittent strong desire to lie down.

I think I maybe need more sleep. I’m so restless again today though. This isn’t me. I don’t lie around doing nothing.

What to do today?

Nothing again I guess.

Everyone else has gone mad

It’s very strange to be an anxiety sufferer at the moment because basically EVERYONE is anxious so it’s the new normal.

I would never have thought that a pandemic would cure my anxiety but it appears to be doing so.

I think it is partly because as I have said above everyone else is anxious too. Also, the Covid-19 pandemic puts absolutely everything else going on in my life into perspective.

None of that divorce shit, or work-related stress matters anymore. The fact that I might die because of my job (I’m a doctor) makes me feel strangely calm. It might make no sense to anyone else but me, but basically for the past 2 years I have had continuous worries that one day I’ll become suicidal. It’s a frequent rumination of mine.

But now, because I am at risk of succumbing to Covid it’s taken those thoughts away.